Hello! I consider myself a contactee of sorts. I grew up with a lot of fear surrounding NHI/ET. I had a lot of nightmares featuring UFO/UAP and have memories of odd humming noises outside of my window at night. The Alien Autopsy video that came out in the 90s gave me quite a scare as a child and may have contributed to all that. I also had these dreams as well as sleep paralysis experiences at least every couple of months or so for most of my life.
Later my experience with NHI/ET became a little more direct. I split my contact into three chapters. Chapter one started in 2007, when I was living with a roommate in a little studio apartment. My roomate was away one night and I had a particularly intense bout of sleep paralysis in which a small grey sized dark figure pressed its arms into my chest. Scariest part was, the next day a highly religious neighbor started talking to me about ways to protect myself from "demons". In 2010, I was living back home with my mom. I had an OOB experience in which I believe my soul or "realme" was pulled from my body, dragged down the hall, and the pulled up against a wall in my living room. I got the sense that I would be yanked into the cosmos, but I was terrified and returned to my body before leaving my home. Soon after that I had an experience in which I saw a strange dark cloud floating in the corner of my room, think "smoke monster" from LOST. It seemed similar to my experiences with sleep paralysis, but I was physically mobile so I'm not sure this was the same. As I noticed this cloud, it rushed over to my face. I rolled out of bed and rushed to turn the light on. Then it was gone.
Chapter 2 started with the most visceral experience of them all. 2014, living in my aunts spare room while I wrapped up college. One night I was "dreaming" of being on a stage in an odd room with lots of rounded metallic shapes. A nude young woman, with an odd plastic looking flower covering her genitals approached me and looked me in the eyes and telepathically communicated "do not be afraid" over and over... which frightened me. I couldn't look away even if I tried. A buzzing sound filled my ears and I could feel a vibration on the back of my head/neck. The buzzing/vibration intensified and the world around around me and the nude woman morphed into a big open field on a beautiful summer day. She was now in a sun dress, but our eyes were still locked in contact and she continued to telepathically say "do not be afraid" and "don't look away" as the buzzing and vibrating continued. But I was afraid and remembered my old religious neighbor from my previous experience experience told me. Demand to be left alone "in the name of God." So I thought that demand to the woman and suddenly the sunny field shifted, eyes still locked on hers, and I was in my room sitting up in bed starring into a dark shadowy figures face--short like a grey. It backed away and our eye contact was broken. Several more similar small shadowy figures surrounded her and the slowly backed away through the wall of my bedroom. As I sat there in my bed, having not woken from sleep I question whether I really had the experience. The strangest part was I felt no fear at that point, accepted it as real, and went to sleep. A couple years later I was living with roommates in a townhouse. In the middle of the night I awoke from a dream and had this overwhelming feeling that I was being watched. In the morning I had an odd memory that felt part dream part reality in which two "MIB" loitered around in my driveway below (I was in a second story room at that time).
Chapter three started in 2017. I was living in an apartment with my girlfriend, now my wife. I had been reading Communion for the first time and feeling very "activated" in regards to thinking about NHI/ET. Several nights a week I would get the sense that I was "connecting" to something when I'd lay down to sleep. I'd communicate telepathically with this entity. I don't remember the details of our communication, unfortunately. I do remember being excited about it. I always saw my chapter 2 experience as pivotal in my life and wanted to initiate stronger contact. One night during that time I felt the connection and the entity and I communicated about contact-- I wanted to "go" which I imagined would be a sort of OBE experience hanging out in the cosmos. In that moment, my wife rolls over in her sleep. Grabs me by the arm and says "don't let them take you." It was if she knew what I was discussing. I assured her I wouldn't returned to my psychic convo and asked what the hell that was about. How did she know. And the entity essentially said, "if you come with us and continue down this road of contact, it will kill her." I thanked it for its honesty and explained that I wasn't willing to make that sacrifice then nor would I ever be okay with that. I said very explicitly, "thank you for communicating with me, but if it is going to hurt my girlfriend I have to ask that it stops." The entity, to my surprise was quite understanding. The nightly " contact" stopped. And so did my constant strange dreams and sleep paralysis. For good.
Or so I thought. More recently, as the world has gathered this current sense of impending... something. I've felt like that conduit has opened back up for me. I built up the courage to "reach out" and ask if that entity I previously communicated was still around. I thanked if for respecting the boundary with my wife/gf, and asked if I possibly misinterpretted its previous message. I explained I was a believer. I was/am concerned about the state of the world and wanted guidance or to help with the "good fight." I got a sense that I hadn't completely understood the initial warning and that the entity seemed to mean it would be more of a death of ontological shock. That my wife had grown significantly since then, and that the risk was, to an extent less.
So I've spent the last couple of years trying to open up that side of myself more. Diving back into the UAP/NHI/ET world of info. Trying to connect psychically most nights. Had a short rapid increase in controlling my psionic ability after reading a leaked document about harnessing it. But I'm locked into this material world at the moment, pursuing my graduate degree and struggle to keep consistent. Still, almost nightly I reach out and ask questions, express gratitude and humble requests for help to make the world better. I want to be part of something good and positive for humanity and this feels like the path. I saw J/R Pridence's Reddit posts and have been reading the posts here ever since.
I still struggle sometimes to separate my fear entities being evil or "demonic" from my upbringing, but also from my experience of evoking the name of God and finding relief. However, I think I may better understand now that consent in general is taken into account, and expressing such an intense "leave me alone" statement may simply be respected by those contacting me rather than some expelling of evil spirits.
The truth is, deep down, I crave contact. I feel very alone and isolated in this world. I don't connect with most people. I have a few close friends and family, but I want more. I feel so full of love and like I have the insatiable desire to help people--or anything good really. As I've read the Q/A and other posts I get the sense that I may have a little part of some other race of being inside me. It makes sense. When I think about it, it just feels true. Relieving almost. So over the last couple of weeks, I've expressed a strong desire for contact. But I'm still afraid.
Which made me wonder. These beings are so advanced and intelligent. They understand the ontological shock they instigate in us. So why not find ways to initiate contact that is less fear inducing? I say this with all due respect, but its hard for me to understand. why does it have to be at night? Why must they behave like they're a monster in a horror story? I get that maybe our media has been inspired by their experience with them and thus portrayed them as such and created a sort of negative feedback loop. But they're the advanced beings. They have control over the situation. I assume they understand. So why torment us?
Once again, I say this with respect and acknowledgement that I don't understand this situation fully, but I can't help but wonder. Regardless of my fear, I am obsessed with the notion of contact. I've had a dream or fantasy of just holding a grey's hand as it walks with me and tells me the nature of things that I can handle. Probably inspired by a similar moment in Steven Spielberg's Taken, but still. The yearning for the physical connection is there in me. I want everything to be okay and I want to help make it that way.
Anyway, I know this is a lot. Like Damian has said-- telepathy is so much more efficient in communicating than language. If any of this is in the wrong place, someone let me know so I can adjust.
Hello! I consider myself a contactee of sorts. I grew up with a lot of fear surrounding NHI/ET. I had a lot of nightmares featuring UFO/UAP and have memories of odd humming noises outside of my window at night. The Alien Autopsy video that came out in the 90s gave me quite a scare as a child and may have contributed to all that. I also had these dreams as well as sleep paralysis experiences at least every couple of months or so for most of my life.
Later my experience with NHI/ET became a little more direct. I split my contact into three chapters. Chapter one started in 2007, when I was living with a roommate in a little studio apartment. My roomate was away one night and I had a particularly intense bout of sleep paralysis in which a small grey sized dark figure pressed its arms into my chest. Scariest part was, the next day a highly religious neighbor started talking to me about ways to protect myself from "demons". In 2010, I was living back home with my mom. I had an OOB experience in which I believe my soul or "realme" was pulled from my body, dragged down the hall, and the pulled up against a wall in my living room. I got the sense that I would be yanked into the cosmos, but I was terrified and returned to my body before leaving my home. Soon after that I had an experience in which I saw a strange dark cloud floating in the corner of my room, think "smoke monster" from LOST. It seemed similar to my experiences with sleep paralysis, but I was physically mobile so I'm not sure this was the same. As I noticed this cloud, it rushed over to my face. I rolled out of bed and rushed to turn the light on. Then it was gone.
Chapter 2 started with the most visceral experience of them all. 2014, living in my aunts spare room while I wrapped up college. One night I was "dreaming" of being on a stage in an odd room with lots of rounded metallic shapes. A nude young woman, with an odd plastic looking flower covering her genitals approached me and looked me in the eyes and telepathically communicated "do not be afraid" over and over... which frightened me. I couldn't look away even if I tried. A buzzing sound filled my ears and I could feel a vibration on the back of my head/neck. The buzzing/vibration intensified and the world around around me and the nude woman morphed into a big open field on a beautiful summer day. She was now in a sun dress, but our eyes were still locked in contact and she continued to telepathically say "do not be afraid" and "don't look away" as the buzzing and vibrating continued. But I was afraid and remembered my old religious neighbor from my previous experience experience told me. Demand to be left alone "in the name of God." So I thought that demand to the woman and suddenly the sunny field shifted, eyes still locked on hers, and I was in my room sitting up in bed starring into a dark shadowy figures face--short like a grey. It backed away and our eye contact was broken. Several more similar small shadowy figures surrounded her and the slowly backed away through the wall of my bedroom. As I sat there in my bed, having not woken from sleep I question whether I really had the experience. The strangest part was I felt no fear at that point, accepted it as real, and went to sleep. A couple years later I was living with roommates in a townhouse. In the middle of the night I awoke from a dream and had this overwhelming feeling that I was being watched. In the morning I had an odd memory that felt part dream part reality in which two "MIB" loitered around in my driveway below (I was in a second story room at that time).
Chapter three started in 2017. I was living in an apartment with my girlfriend, now my wife. I had been reading Communion for the first time and feeling very "activated" in regards to thinking about NHI/ET. Several nights a week I would get the sense that I was "connecting" to something when I'd lay down to sleep. I'd communicate telepathically with this entity. I don't remember the details of our communication, unfortunately. I do remember being excited about it. I always saw my chapter 2 experience as pivotal in my life and wanted to initiate stronger contact. One night during that time I felt the connection and the entity and I communicated about contact-- I wanted to "go" which I imagined would be a sort of OBE experience hanging out in the cosmos. In that moment, my wife rolls over in her sleep. Grabs me by the arm and says "don't let them take you." It was if she knew what I was discussing. I assured her I wouldn't returned to my psychic convo and asked what the hell that was about. How did she know. And the entity essentially said, "if you come with us and continue down this road of contact, it will kill her." I thanked it for its honesty and explained that I wasn't willing to make that sacrifice then nor would I ever be okay with that. I said very explicitly, "thank you for communicating with me, but if it is going to hurt my girlfriend I have to ask that it stops." The entity, to my surprise was quite understanding. The nightly " contact" stopped. And so did my constant strange dreams and sleep paralysis. For good.
Or so I thought. More recently, as the world has gathered this current sense of impending... something. I've felt like that conduit has opened back up for me. I built up the courage to "reach out" and ask if that entity I previously communicated was still around. I thanked if for respecting the boundary with my wife/gf, and asked if I possibly misinterpretted its previous message. I explained I was a believer. I was/am concerned about the state of the world and wanted guidance or to help with the "good fight." I got a sense that I hadn't completely understood the initial warning and that the entity seemed to mean it would be more of a death of ontological shock. That my wife had grown significantly since then, and that the risk was, to an extent less.
So I've spent the last couple of years trying to open up that side of myself more. Diving back into the UAP/NHI/ET world of info. Trying to connect psychically most nights. Had a short rapid increase in controlling my psionic ability after reading a leaked document about harnessing it. But I'm locked into this material world at the moment, pursuing my graduate degree and struggle to keep consistent. Still, almost nightly I reach out and ask questions, express gratitude and humble requests for help to make the world better. I want to be part of something good and positive for humanity and this feels like the path. I saw J/R Pridence's Reddit posts and have been reading the posts here ever since.
I still struggle sometimes to separate my fear entities being evil or "demonic" from my upbringing, but also from my experience of evoking the name of God and finding relief. However, I think I may better understand now that consent in general is taken into account, and expressing such an intense "leave me alone" statement may simply be respected by those contacting me rather than some expelling of evil spirits.
The truth is, deep down, I crave contact. I feel very alone and isolated in this world. I don't connect with most people. I have a few close friends and family, but I want more. I feel so full of love and like I have the insatiable desire to help people--or anything good really. As I've read the Q/A and other posts I get the sense that I may have a little part of some other race of being inside me. It makes sense. When I think about it, it just feels true. Relieving almost. So over the last couple of weeks, I've expressed a strong desire for contact. But I'm still afraid.
Which made me wonder. These beings are so advanced and intelligent. They understand the ontological shock they instigate in us. So why not find ways to initiate contact that is less fear inducing? I say this with all due respect, but its hard for me to understand. why does it have to be at night? Why must they behave like they're a monster in a horror story? I get that maybe our media has been inspired by their experience with them and thus portrayed them as such and created a sort of negative feedback loop. But they're the advanced beings. They have control over the situation. I assume they understand. So why torment us?
Once again, I say this with respect and acknowledgement that I don't understand this situation fully, but I can't help but wonder. Regardless of my fear, I am obsessed with the notion of contact. I've had a dream or fantasy of just holding a grey's hand as it walks with me and tells me the nature of things that I can handle. Probably inspired by a similar moment in Steven Spielberg's Taken, but still. The yearning for the physical connection is there in me. I want everything to be okay and I want to help make it that way.
Anyway, I know this is a lot. Like Damian has said-- telepathy is so much more efficient in communicating than language. If any of this is in the wrong place, someone let me know so I can adjust.