Growth.

I hope this isn't self serving BS. If it is let me know. But a thought occured...

I had a coworker come say hello to me because my boss and his mom were arguing and she had tears in her eyes. It was too much too handle. I don't know her past but I remember always grabbing my sisters when we were woken up by domestic violence incidents. Never us kids. But scarring. I was the oldest I used to grab my sisters and keep them in a closet. Sometimes holding a BB gun at the closet door. As odd as it sounds, it's something I've learned to be thankful for.

Having my coworker cry I , for the first time, felt strong and you can be with me, it's okay.

Confident. Weird.

We seek problems because we need their gifts, no such thing as a problem without a gift for you in its hands. This Richard Bach quote I'm paraphrasing reminds of reading on here of our freewill but things we need to learn.

I grew up never ever to this day touching a woman disrespectfully. It's shaped my life. I was scared but always full of love.

Then going into what I thought was about ET rabbit holes brought me to spirituality... To Oneness with our other being brothers. And it resonates and I feel it's resonating in life powerfully right now.

The Love. The one thing that matters. I try, I'm no where near perfect to accept, understand, deal with bad drivers, and love and know it's one.

Thanks to my free will of hitting rock bottom, then becoming over time somebody I wanted to be... Has led me here to all of you.

I don't know any of you personally.

But I love all of you in a very real way.

You're all so special and gifted and I see your posts and root for all of you.

We are all one. Thanks for making my little part so wonderful and full of so much growth. Its all the love that's changed my world.

I know we have friends above and all around us we can't even see. I know it in my soul and I know I chose this life. Seeing it here has just validated that

From the bottom of my heart,

Thank you

Jesse R.