Dancing through life in order to defy gravity

This is a long one. And if you don't feel up to reading it, or need to break it up, that is okay, and I want you to feel okay to do that! This is, what I have been working on for a bit now, and have a lot more to say. It started to get really long and I'd like to make more another time! But here are some things that I have been working on and learning that I want to share. I want us to focus on our wellbeing.

Like mostly all of you, I have had a really hard life. That's kind of an understatement! But I want to get into how I started to turn that all around. I seriously had to start by facing my fears. I wrote out each and every one of my fears. Every single one of my regrets. I asked myself, why am I scared of this? Why did I do that? What have I learned, and what do I need to do to move on and feel better? My fears ended up being a lot longer than I thought they would be. And I still find myself adding to that list from time to time. And that's okay. I want you to know, that fear isn't the enemy, exactly. To let it swallow you whole, that is the problem. To face the fear, to pick it apart and figure out why it is there, is the point of it. And I hope it is obvious, that I am not talking about fears such as being scared of a bear attacking you, when you live in bear country and do not abide by the safety rules there. What you really should be scared of in that situation, is your lack of intelligence. But that is okay, and you are okay, and you will or you will not learn how to be safe around bears, one way or another. We are all learning, we are all growing. And those reading this, are more than likely, "Starseeds who are awakening."

Earth itself is a starseed too, it is awakening, along with all of us, as we speak. You can feel this, you can feel her if you just put your hands down in the grass and dirt and just feel that energy flowing. She is, quite literally, taking us on a ride, a journey, throughout the galaxy and cosmos. She intends to wake up, and intends to help guide us all to wake up too. All of us. It's true. We all do this in our own way, in our own time. And Mother Earth, she is on our side, she doesn't hate us or wish for us to feel like she does. Hate is not the way, no matter who has wronged you. The only choice is the way of love. To lean into hate, is allow your energy conditions to become "unbalanced."

When energy conditions are out of balance, one becomes disconnected. Becoming disconnected is an issue that we all face, and must work on. And one of the most important factors at play here, is intent. Most of us have the intent to become connected and disconnected no longer. Part of connecting, is a feeling of "saving humanity" for a real lack of better term. 

We have a "mission to save humanity." So to speak! Starseeds have this "drive." It's something that I believe most of us feel, and also quite daunting. I have wrestled with this my whole life, and done a lot of work, especially recently, on how to "do" this. And it is, oh so easy, really! You are already doing it. WE are ALL already "Doing IT!" Every time you are, "in the moment" "in the zone" or whatever you wish to call it, you are being, you are doing, you are "happening." You are, whatever you are doing in that moment. Think of it as a verb, if that helps. For example, I find when I cook, most of the time, I am "in my groove." What I mean by this is, my hands are reaching for the spices they need to be, almost as if I am being guided. And in a way, I am!! ((I am, by myself! It is true for us all. We are all one, so what else does this tell us??)) Anytime I am outside, and see something "magical" BAM it's doing it. When I am "going with the flow," I am "doing it." But I didn't always used to be this way. I used to really resist this, even though I wanted it so desperately! But I feel like this most of the time lately, for awhile now! For a long while now, since I started really working on all this stuff.

Would you believe that I used to be the biggest klutz that really ever existed? I was always getting hurt, tripping, dropping stuff, hurting others by mistake. I had always been able to think about things, but really would just kinda do it anyways, most of the time. A lot of the time, I just would trip or something and it wouldn't be my fault. But if I got hurt, or if I hurt someone else, more often than not, it was because I didn't stop and think about how my actions might affect myself and others. 

It wasn't until after I became a mother, that I became "graceful." And becoming that, made me realize that I had to wait for something to be careful for. I remember being pregnant and having this vision of my future child falling down the stairs. And... I was horrified, of course! Of course, I must never let this future pass! The world was suddenly, such a scary place. I had thought that I was brave before, but it wasn't until then that I realized how very brave I wasn't.

 So I became, dare I say it, neurotic. Extremely careful, to a fault. I still might be this way, sometimes, but I am much better and braver now. I used to let others tell me how to live my life. I do not do this anymore, at all. I really had to learn how to really be brave, and not just put on a brave face. I realized, putting on a brave face meant ignoring my fears. Pretending they didn't exist. Instead of doing what I should have been doing, which is questioning why I had them all in the first place. But that is alright, because I wasn't ready to really become this person who really is "fearless" now. 

And I am. Fearless, I mean. So I do have things that still worry me. And stuff that goes wrong. And I am not gonna go play in the middle of the street, just hopeful that a car doesn't hurt me. I am not going to let fear stop me from doing the things I want to do. But I am going to be smart about it. It took me a long time to learn how to do that, and how to come to that realization. And I write this long thing to help maybe just one person understand this as well. You don't have to be scared anymore. We can face our fears, together. It's safe now, and you don't have to hide behind that mask anymore. It's okay. The earth keeps spinning, life keeps going, and everything WILL be okay even if it doesn't feel like it, it IS okay and it is okay to not feel okay. Feel your feelings, they are there for a reason.

Doing spiritual work to trigger the ascension is "the" (I say this really lightly) only reason why we came here. You are already a being/doing/what you must/and always have. You are already simply being an energy worker, working diligently to alter the physical laws of this universe to make it a better place for our brothers and sisters. Easy, right? :P But you are already doing it!

WE are the ones who have the power to bring change. WE are the lightworkers, the wayshowers, the changemakers. All of US, have spent our whole lives trying to get ready for exactly what is happening now. Do not think that you are not ready. Or that you are not where you should be. It is quite obvious to me, that you have always been exactly where you should be. Do not listen to other people who say you are not making progress nearly enough, or those who give you any reason to doubt yourself. Do you doubt yourself? Why? You are scared to fail? That's okay. Being scared to make a mistake, to have regret, is understandable. It is in our nature to shy away from pain. And regret, hurts! But regret shows us what we thing we have done wrong. And it's good to feel that. 

With that being said, please, do listen to those close to you who tell you when you are straying from your path. These people often love us, and really do mean to help. It is not going to harm anything, to just consider what they say. There are those who do not mean to help us, and are just trying to make us be like "them." Those folks, maybe don't have your best interests at heart. They don't mean to be this way, most of the time. They try so hard to change us, because they are also so scared that we might end up like something they fear. It allllll boils down to fear here. Letting it rule you, isn't the way. Understanding it, is a really good first step at understanding yourself as well as others.

Really. Start by writing down your fears, in order to work on your karma. Your fears, help you show what kind of karma baggage you carry, and if we work on this, we work on our Karma. I intend on writing more about this another time, as this is already so long. But feel free to ask me for any help with this! There is also "someone" else you can ask! Yourself! I am not even kidding. You are your own superpower. Let me tell you how I started, I am almost done, (for now) I swear! :}

Something we can also do, is ask our "guides" for help! And here is how I, do this, although, I believe that lots of people do this lots of ways and there really isn't a wrong way to do it, if it feels right to you.

Try to have no fear of negative consequences, to just simply, move forward. One needs to simply express their intent to progress. Affirmations help. Say, out loud, or inside your head, really really mean it though. ::I wish to move forward, I choose life, I choose the ascension:: Then, hang on, and enjoy the ride! <Another good affirmation is, I am okay, I am safe, And I am LOVED!>

Asking guides for help can, also for lack of better terms, help. How does one do this, you may ask? Just give them permission to help. They have been with you since before you were even born. They, apparently can't help without explicit permission, it just goes against the rules of this earth, from my understanding. This, guarantees your personal sovereignty, it is always your choice. So, choose guidance. Say something like, I wish to move forward, or I wish to advance on The path, or Show me the way, something like that. You will move forward, but do not give your power away to them, they do not want that. You have control over this process, you need to let them know if things are moving too fast, or if you are losing sleep. You need to just say, hey guys, cool it, lets slow down, and they should give you whatever you need to be okay! Trust yourself, trust that you will understand what to do. The guides, are you. You sent them to yourself to help you. You must learn to trust yourself, you must learn to believe in yourself, but it does take time!

I trust you, that you got this. I believe in you, the person reading this, right now, more than anything! I really do. Now, believe in yourself, or have the intent to try. And together, let us build our new world that we all so desperately wish for. I know we can do this! 

I hope you are all doing well and have a great week! Please take it easy, and take care and be well!

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