Like many of you here, I have had happenings that occurred throughout my life, which lead me here. I felt that it would be good to detail some of them. There may be more to come, depending.
So, firstly when I was a very young child, toddler age, my mother has informed me that I attempted to pretend I was "a snake" for 3 straight days. Not only that, but I would have strange monologues about "coming from the stars."
Sometimes I had memories, of an abduction I think, from early in life, and the awareness I had then frightened me. It's all very fuzzy, but I had thought these "greys" were scary. They were like the monsters under my bed at night. My parents have actually gone into how I had high anxiety about such things that seemed to not make sense, or be worrying to them. I even recall that the movie "Close Encounters of a Third Kind," did not go over well with little me because of this, at the time.
Beyond that, I had an utter fascination with science fiction, especially anything to do with aliens.
One night, when I was around 3rd grade I want to say? I witnessed a saucer. In a suburban neighborhood, even, while unloading groceries from the car. I saw a band of red lights, and I happened to have my binoculars. I looked through them. That was no plane. It definitively had a saucer shape, the red lights were in a "band" around the shape, blinking, almost as if in a pattern. I could hardly believe it...and in fact I repressed this as "It was probably just a plane." When Prudence spoke on saucers, and how these are "rolls royce" type craft one is lucky to see, I remembered this very clearly.
Another happening, though I cannot recall if this was before or after the saucer sighting, I think it may have been after. I got really into reading about UFOs and ET. It was an OBSESSION. Even though sometimes, the accounts of people were frightening, I kept on reading, and reading, as if I knew there was something there. One book, I wish I could find which one it was specifically, had an account where someone was abducted by, and had a meeting with little greys. These little greys actually defied other abduction stories, telling this human many truths, and imparting the 333 collective's intent to help humanity evolve. I was so intrigued. The story even involved that the contactee claimed they had FURTHER communication even after abduction, through telepathy, frequently.
And so one day, feeling lonely on the bus ride home. I tried it myself. I reached out.
To my surprise, they responded. I spent many days on the bus, "daydreaming" I would later tell myself, having amazing conversations with these guys. They told me I was special, they said I had a mission to do, they hinted how I was not fully human in spirit. And then doubt set in. I convinced myself I was only "daydreaming." None of this could possibly be real. It was not "scientific" and I had been told I was such a "smart" and "gifted" child, why was I wasting time on "nonsense." Further, I was scared, due to the earlier events. I remembered this recently, in some detail as well. And received a form of confirmation that my communication was not mere "daydreaming."
Well that all might be pretty deniable false memories, a skeptic might say to themselves. Except, recently, right before I joined this website, something else happened.
I have sleep apnea, so I must use a CPAP Machine
Basically, its a device with a mask I must put over my face in order to breath at night, without interruption of my narrow palate making episodes where I'm basically suffocating. This device is actually tracking when I use it. It logs the hours I use it, and I am pretty diligent about checking this.
There was a night I was reading about "Fairy Magic" for fun. The book I was reading said, that on the nights of the new moon, "the veil" is thinnest, and it is when people could enter "Fairy Portals." I thought this was intriguing.
Just for fun, I asked if I could be allowed to "pass through" this veil that night. And then went to bed.
I had such a deep sleep, with dreams and visions I do not fully recall. And when I woke up, I felt...rested, but still tired. I checked the hours on my cpap machine, given when I went to bed, it should have read about 7 hours.
It actually gave me a read out of 3 hours. 3 total hours where my cpap was connected and "on."
I was in shock over this. What on EARTH, there was the physical evidence, staring me in the face, that I had not been in bed for about 4 got dang HOURS. I did not recall getting out of bed though. Normally when I do, my mask is a bit "loose," it seemed tight enough. In fact, it almost seemed...adjusted to perfection.
It is now my belief I was "Abducted" that night for "container attunement" as Damien likes to call it. I probably do not recall because I was still working out some biases against the 333 collective, also, as I understand it, a lot of that "Work" is best done when the vessel is not fully "aware."
This was a lot to take in, however, ultimately I have accepted it. Like I have said, there may be more to come, for now, these experiences will suffice.
Hope you enjoyed this recollection.
-V
I've been reminiscing some of my more intense experiences as well. Maybe I'll tell some of them here one day...
I appreciate reading your walk down memory lane. Thank you for sharing.
You guys are really strong people for enduring these types of experiences. Kudos. Ty for sharing V
Sounds like they have been checking up on you your whole life! That is quite a lot of amazing experiences!
And considering that you got that tangible proof with the CPAP machine, that is pretty cool! I imagine it made it easier to accept the earlier experiences rather than just writing them off as something else.
I laughed so hard at the part about pretending you were a snake because I, no lie, walked around grocery stores as a toddler and hissed at anyone who tried to touch me. You know those little old ladies in the south who just want to touch some kid's hair? It's less normal now than when I was that age, but nevertheless, my mother told me a story of me being in a grocery cart, or buggie as my mother called them... and some old woman coming to an adorable, darling little child of like, 4, with thick curly brown hair looking like an angel. Well, I showed her that I was actually a velociraptor, hands curled against my sides and everything.
Also had the exact same experience with some Grays. I will say I think I have been visited by different sets of them. I know there are different branching uh, oh gosh I'm trying to find the word so I'm not reductive... uh, races, styles, capacities, collectives? That kind of thing. I was really terrified of a certain kind of gray face when I was a kid. It almost looks like they have the Egyptian-style hood on their head that wraps around the back and makes kind of like, I don't know how to explain it, other than the Pharoah look with the blue-and-white headdress that makes them have a raised and pointed, but wide in the back head. The aliens from Independence Day look kind of similar and made me shit my pants when I saw them the first time and saw something from my dreams staring me in the face from media.
Also, same for those visits at night. I've been getting them while doing what I call waking-dreaming, which is some kind of deep trance I manage to go into naturally now. I can actually meditate and work, but it can cause issues and makes me extremely tired and groggy, but I have felt my body actually pulse and convulse from these sessions. (Also hi mantis, I love you.)
It's amazing that you have the verification of the CPAP machine, though. Glad they were nice enough to put it back on, and perfectly, too! I hope you keep sharing your experiences! They're a great way for others to see these things.
Well thank you for sharing this. It kinda hit me really hard and I need to process the daydreaming thing and... some other stuff. The time stuff raised some hairs. I am proud of ya V. It's an honor to know you. Really mean that. Your brain is awesome and anytime you write a post or comment, I'm really drawn to it. Maybe it's because we are dragon bros. But I think its because I know how special you are. And this just... helped me understand a bit of that more. So thank you for sharing! A little silly but thank you for getting and wearing your CPAP machine. It kinda sucks but it's a healthy choice and I'm happy that you shared this. My partner just got one recently after... uh. Much time lets say. I don't feel scared he's gonna suffocate in his sleep anymore, among other things. Those things are amazing and people can be... silly about them. But thanks for wearing one and being healthy! The sleep stats are so cool, I love that you observed this!